Really Rich Italian Satanists

To all of you from all of me…happy thanksgiving.

Let us look back upon this year and cheer our success and accept our failure. Let us share our joy and our sorrow and be thankful that we are a family because if you read this most likely you are a family of sorts to me. Sometimes we don’t agree and sometimes we downright furiously disagree with each other, but we get over it and compromise where we can. In my own way I love you all, even if my love sometimes seems harsh/weird/dirty/angry/hateful. To those of you that are my enemies, today is the day I forget, only today though.

And now a message from Father Rolvus:

Hello…this is Charles Rolvus speaking to you from beyond the grave. I am speaking to you through the little talking machine. If you are hearing this most likely I have passed into obscurity or final death. If this is the case then despair not little Nosferatu for I will never be truly dead. I exist in all Nosferatu everywhere. When you see a Daeva and think that you want to embrace their pretty little ghoul, Rolvus is in you! When a Ventrue snubs their nose at you and you bleed all over their lawn, Rolvus is in you! When a Mekhet fails to see through you cloak and you are silently laughing at his misfortune, Rolvus is in you! Finally, when you all rise up from your hidey-holes and conquer the world enslaving mortal and kindred alike, Rolvus is in you! Remember Nosferatu that Rolvus is in each and every single one of you and you alone have the power to rule the world.

Rolvus loves you!

First off…the new Venture Brothers this week was…weird. I would like to say I enjoyed it, but it was off. Sgt. Hatred’s Pedophile tendencies has always been a side joke of the show but now it has been put into a sharper plot light that makes it almost sad. I feel really bad for ol’ Hatred and his problems.This last episode covered the psychological problems of both Hatred and Dr. Venture (and a bunch of other one time and minor characters). It almost felt like a filler episode but perhaps there is a reason behind it. On the whole I give it 2 out of 5 stars.

Second…So there has been a guy named Ryan who lives in Sacramento who I have been speaking with on OKCupid, it’s been fun and also very sexual in our conversations. Last night we realized that we had met before when I was living in Sacramento. We messed around a couple of time (which I recall was quite good) but he was in the closet and freaked out at the time because he was unsure about himself, so we never spoke again until this point. He has a kinky streak which i appreciate and he is fun to talk with. The issue is mainly distance. I have no plans to return to Sacramento and I doubt anyone would come down to Reno if they could help it. *shrug* If nothing else it is a pleasant online distraction.

Finally an experiment…Steve I am sorry but I need to know.

Chicken In A Biskit

Let me know if you clapped.

Well this past weekend did not go exactly as I thought it would, for multiple reasons. First off, on the 3 LARP games this weekend there was a change of power structure in all 3 games. In Vampire the prince ran off (go Le Teur) leaving the seat vacant, in which a Nosferatu Ordo Dracul  named Ernie took the position. In Mage the Hierarch stepped down and returned back to England, leaving Mai, a spirit mage played by Dan took the position by democratic process. In Changeling, the Autumn court changed representatives in the absence of the Autumn King through a travesty of democracy. It in unprecedented for all 3 venues to have a shift in power in the same weekend so yay for a first.

My lunch date with Brandon was canceled due to Brandon not feeling well. I choose to take this excuse at face value since we are in the “go out and talk and get to know you” phase of things. I don’t think someone would try to make excuses this early on if it was a simple matter of not wanting to spend any time with me. One would just say at this point “You know I don’t see this going anywhere so let’s just save the time and money.” At least that is how I think, which doesn’t mean it’s necessarily true.  He could be trying to dodge me but I don’t get that particular vibe.

Currently DJing at the 5 star and it is dead…maybe 4 people total in the bar. I hope it will pick up, I could use the cash and Jay could use the business. Despite this lack of business I feel my week long funk lifting and starting to feel a bit of normal again. There is a couple of things that are currently not fixable due to circumstance. Mainly it is just one thing.

I really miss Arthur.

No matter what was going on in either of our lives we managed to put it in the back of our minds with a combination of travel, irresponsible behavior, and silly hats. We were a team devoted to the spread of depravity and witty banter. We functioned on a thought pattern that those lesser folk we hung out with could not even begin to comprehend. We try to make due with what we have ( conversations over phone and internet) but it is not quite the same. It is like the other half of my brain is on the other side of the country and I can’t access the thoughts I need to function.

So Arthur I say to you…

You go get ‘em, Sheriff! Go get your ghost! Them ghosts is gonna crawl right up in your h-e-e-e-ead! You found yourself into something you ain’t never getting out of! We’ll get ya! We’ll… get ya! We’ll get ya! You’re dead, Sheriff! You’re dead! I’ll see you in fucking hell! HAHAHAHA!

I miss you.

Right now I am currently trying to get through the last 3 weeks of school, a gaming weekend this weekend and a lunch date on Saturday so I am going to be posting very sporadically. Most likely no detailed post until after this weekend.

English 102 is an infuriatingly simple class. As long as you aren’t young and dumb or a mentally slow 40 year old. Unfortunately the class consists of young and dumb people and mentally slow 40 year olds. So for the last 3 weeks of class we are covering grammar which we covered in English 101. The hippie feels that the class has not “evolved as writers”. Hence, we have to go through the process all over again.

The not getting any problem was taken care of after class this morning. One of my friends boyfriends invited me over and we messed around. I had a threesome with both of them a few months ago so I assume that the relationship is open. I’ve learned a long time ago to not ask questions about such arrangements. Ignorance is bliss in this instance.

I need to start getting my mail sent to the 5 Star. I am always here. I think I spend more hours a week at the 5 star than I do at home. Not counting sleep time. Sure I work here…2 or 3 days a week but still I am off tonight and where am I? Right now though it is pretty quiet in the bar, there are 3 other people here besides bartender Scott.

I’m going to cut this short as today has not yielded any other results than an annoying class and decent sexual exploits.

End of Line

Today just plain sucked. Especially just now. At the 5 star after my shift and now a large group of drunken loud obnoxious people just came in yelling, screaming and generally making a nuisance of themselves. Rewinding to more suck now. Currently the Monday DJ shifts are dead. Justin who did weekend dayshift bar-tending  has taken Jay’s shift and so far his type of crowd has not found their way to come in yet. So tips are currently very very low. On top of it the person who was in the bar my entire shift was an old cantankerous fuck names Larry who has nothing better to do than bitch about my music and complain that he can’t play his shitty old thyme music on the Jukebox. I have determined that fate has kept the dinosaur alive just to spite me. He is the kind of person that when you hear the rumor of the new medical bill forcing euthanasia you say “please?” .

I am in a general funk anyway. Three weeks left of class and I really want it to be over now.  I haven’t gotten any in a few weeks now.  Ok I did about a week ago with my ex Patrick but it wasn’t anything spectacular enough to satiate me for any amount of time. Put all that with the fact that I just don’t feel like interacting with anyone at the moment in any kind of conversation or social group and you got a pretty shitty mood.

It makes me wish I had a boyfriend I didn’t really like so I could take all my frustration out on breaking his pathetic little heart. Only reason to miss Mark. He made a great emotional punching bag. Oh well he is being punched by someone else now so I can take satisfaction in the fact that he has learned nothing from the 2 years we were together. Pathetic…almost too pathetic to hate….almost.

Sometimes I feel like I need a real job to keep me occupied instead of this DJ for tips gig. It’s not the lack of money because honestly I don’t require that much at the moment. It’s more I have time on my hands and my idle hands are most defiantly influenced by a devil or two.

It looks like the drunk bitched are dying down, hopefully they will leave so I can get some peace and quiet before I head off to my bed and pass out.

Euthanize today!

Euthanize often!

Euthanize for out future!

SCIENCE!

Ok kids, for those of you who don’t know this about me, I do not watch very much television. I find most shows that are currently on TV to be mindless bullshit. That being said, the Venture Brothers is an amazing show and the 4th season is win. On the surface it appears to be a simple parody of the Johnny Quest show, but there is a lot of depth in this animation and a lot of conspiracy inside. Today I would like to cover a few possibilities that the show has hinted at.

*SPOILER WARNING*

1. This is one of the more easy to believe theories. Dr. Venture SR. was a member of the Guild of Calamitous Intent.

This is now even more easy to believe with the fact that Col Venture was the founder of the Guild and that Dean is the true heir to the Guild. Also what kind of protagonist deals in Arachnid Research, building an underground bunker with their own nuclear facilities and an angry super-computer (M.U.T.H.E.R) and uses their own son as bait? The man helped draft laws in the guild! He has to be!

2. O.S.I. and the Guild are the same entity.

OK this one may be a bit hard to swallow initially but lets look at some interesting facts. The fact that there are organizations in the first place to handle super-scientist protection and super-villain placement is completely absurd. There is no reason that these departments should exist. Many characters on the show have stated that the games played between protagonist/antagonist are nonsensical. Finally the fact that S.P.H.I.N.X exists and that Brock would join makes it possible that this organization knows what is actually going on in the background between O.S.I and the Guild and is trying to put a stop to it.

and finally…

The most absurd of the bunch

3. Peter White is a minor guild operative.

David Bowie (Sovereign) gave a panda to Mr. Brisby as part of a bet. The bet was on a Quizboy show. Pete White hosted that show, where he cheated to make Billy win, but was found out. It is possible that White cheated on behalf of Bowie so he could win the bet. Hence White would be a minor guild operative.

Daily Stuff: Was working at 5 Star today. It was a fairly decent crowd although the tips were not good. In general though there were not any people that I outright wanted out of the bar tonight fortunately. Steve Elegant is currently working on the musical work I requested plus some extras which I hope to have out soon for your listening  displeasure.  Also Lady Gaga grows on you and then wears on you. I am ready to find her myself and take her out. Even if she retired from her pop music hell it wouldn’t matter because…

No one retires from the Phantom Limb’s shit list!

Well Leviathan is dead…or at least on life support. Looks like I am going to have to wipe the entire thing and start fresh on it. Stupid virus has made it that I can’t even access my stuff in safe mode to remove it now. Fortunately there isn’t anything on their that is irreplaceable. I can get all my stuff back it’s just going to take awhile. I can’t find the XP disk for it now but I am going to search in the morning for it and just do what I should have done in the first place (When I had access to my files).

1 day later….

Still cannot find the XP disk. It might be in the storage unit, however that is a pain to search through. My dad wants to put a Linux OS onto Leviathan. I am not exactly sure how I feel about it. In theory I support Linux since it is not Microsoft, however I have never really worked with Linux before and not sure how I feel about it being on my Leviathan. Without the XP disc though I don’t see what other options I have.

Geek Moment: Was reading through the Mage: The Awakening book to make a new character for the LARP. Time Sphere is crazy stupid busted with what you can do with it.  Especially if you have it high enough.

4:53pm: Now at the bar, getting ready for my shift. The new bartender Josh is working, I am really not sure what to make of Josh since he really doesn’t speak much.  It is almost frustrating how little he interacts behind the bar. Maybe he will grow into it, we’ll see.

Will be speaking with Steve Elegant in a few hours regarding music projects and various other things.

Something Something…complete.

Tonight was a Camarilla game night. For the uninformed that means LARP (Live Action Role Playing).  No we do not go out into the forest and throw tennis balls at each other. Tonight was Vampire: The Requiem, a game where you take on the role of an undead bloodsucking monster with a penchant for backstabby politics and long winded plotting…like high school with fangs.  In this game I take on the role of one Madam Le Teur, a voodoo priestess with a knack for medicine. My day from 7pm to midnight consists of playing this role. Let me tell you that as fun as it is…very taxing. We play at UNR which has those light fixtures that give me a headache. On top of which being part of what is essentially a 5 hour improv session takes a lot of energy out of you. Tomorrow (Saturday) I get to do it from 3pm-midnight with 2 different games.  Now I could go on and tell you about all the little game stuff that happened but that doesn’t really make for good reading unless you are a fan of LARP, and if so you were probably already there tonight.

Prior to game I was online getting some photo’s up on 5 Star’s Myspace page from Halloween this year. While doing so I was chatting with two people whom I don’t normally speak with Brian from Sacramento and Kenny who currently lives in Hawaii. Brian is perhaps the more even tempered of Sacramento friends I have current and prior. He certainly is not a drugged out failure or a neurotic non-person. I probably don’t speak to him as much as I should but since his life is not a churning pot of dramatic bullshit there really isn’t much for us to talk about beyond small talk and catch up time. Kenny on the other hand is difficult to speak with…more so since he returned from Ireland for a trip. When he is spineless he is mopey and when he grows a pair he is an ass. Very much a person who thinks in black/white terms and so deep in the closet that he found Narnia (thank you Nate). Today he was on his “I love Hawaii because I get dates” kick. After a few rounds of this kind of talk I logged off. I really don’t care about this bitchy Keebler Elf’s triumphs against the fairer sex in an attempt to lie to himself.

Hmm…I want cookies.

5 Star Saloon, Reno NV

Samuel Writer  and Leathermime

Scott Bartender and Degenerate.

An Old Man, a Heterosexual and other Queens and Twinks.

Intro:

Tonight starts the opening of this blog. A reflection of my thoughts on daily events and longer term projects.  This was presented to me as an early Birthday gift by Arthur (who will kill you if I say he should kill you). For this I am grateful and shall do my best to repay with some kind of strange favor that only I can provide.

Daily Events:

Up until about 7am this morning I was trying to get my desktop computer (Leviathan) to work again. Picked up a strange worm virus thing that shut down my computer 60 seconds after loading. Let me tell you this was a pain in the ass. Say what you like about Windows Vista at least my laptop (The Architect)  doesn’t pick up strange little things every instance of a Window’s upgrade. XP seems to pick up a new problem with each upgrade. You would think that it was resistant to such things but no…not so much. I get Windows 7 for the Architect soon thinking i might work some voodoo and get it on Leviathan as well.

I got what little sleep I could until I had to wake up to do an inane assignment for English 102 on Hamlet before class at 5:30pm. I banged it together like a 3 man sandwich and proceeded to class. The lesson was him reviewing sentence structure. I had this teacher in English 102 and due to the cruel hand of Fate ended up as the teacher for the 102 class. This review was the exact same lesson as he taught in 101. It wasn’t enlightening then and it didn’t do anything amazing for an encore. I realize my sentence structure in this blog is not perfect but I am ranting, therefore I will write however I damn well please.

After class Dan, Rachel (Dan’s girl) and TNT wanted to go do Karaoke. The El Cortez has amazing karaoke, this is the bar’s only saving grace. There are strange old homeless looking guys hanging around at all times, the place smells constantly of vomit and the place charges 2 dollars for soda (with no refills). I did my few songs that I enjoy doing ( A Cher song sounding like an angry punk-rocker, my dirty rendition of  ‘Part of Your World’ from the Little Mermaid and ‘Sweet Transvestite’) when Tim and his annoying girlfriend (She Who Will Not be Named) I decided I could not take anymore of them looking conjoined at the hips  and proceeded to leave with haste to the 5 Star.

5 Star is full of the kind of queens that I wish to hit with a 2X4 and scream obscenities to until they go back to the Castro St Hell whence they came.  Fortunately I have my laptop and can ignore my surroundings.  Pretty soon I think I am going to head home and ignore people in the privacy in my own home.

Long Term Projects:

I have Steve Elegant (best Muppet musician since Dr.Teeth.) currently working on the beat lines for the “Give me the Gun” track for the “Niggers from Mars” sound project. Once completed i can start adding the ‘Devil’s Rejects’ quotes into it and it will be ready for the website premiere ( which was supposed to be January…of last year…)

There was a date type thing last Saturday with a guy named Brandon, I call it a date although it was really just meeting for coffee. I like him, he is very intelligent and well spoken. I have no idea if I have any romantic interest or not. I usually can’t tell right away and usually if I feel a “spark” on the first meeting it just means that I haven’t gotten any in awhile and I need someone for the moment. So tentatively we have plans to meet up again  on the 21st. I will perhaps have more to say on the subject then.

Final Curtain:

I will be working on this blog to have more than just the main page and the Achtung! page. Please stay tuned for further instructions.

Antonio say’s I should kill you

He says you’ve seen too much

But I’m not going to

I’ll make you a deal.

You start running now

And I’ll pretend you got away.